To start with I don't know how to put this... I was raised in a very religious Catholic home and went to an all girls convent. I have to admit I did kind of want it but hesitated and he kept convincing me...
Eventually we did end up having sex and I did enjoy it but right now I just feel guilty and dirty and a bit scared. He asked if I wanted to have unprotected sex and I said no because I'm scared of getting pregnant. Then he told me about what he did with his ex (I know who she is) , their contraceptive methods after and now I'm afraid what if he does the same thing and tells other people about what we did. My country is a very conservative country with religious values SO I am quite afraid of the stigma.
We met in July and he's been nothing but sweet to me and thoughtful but I can't help thinking I made the wrong decision. I don't know why but I cried alone in my room afterwards. A day after I still feel sore and I feel like I lost something. I'm sorry I just don't have anyone to talk to about this. Hope someone can please kindly help me.
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Tl;DR : grew up in a religious environment, Had sex for the first time, bf kinda pressured me a bit but I enjoyed it but now I'm confused and hurt like I lost something
Submitted November 21, 2020 at 08:06PM by Tuliya123r https://ift.tt/35VGrlP
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