I just stopped crying 10 minutes ago and I’m still trying to process this. I’m currently in (still) our house alone typing this as my (still) husband took our kids to visit the grandparents.
Today was supposed to be a fun Friday and we were making plans for the weekend since our state is opening back up. A close family friend called about a trip we had planned for September. She is managing the reservations and whatnot for the whole group and asked us to send our portion for the bookings. I got off the phone and went upstairs to tell my husband. After I finished, he sat on the bed and said, loud and clear, “[my name], there’s won’t be an us by then”. I didn’t fully process what he had just said so I asked him what that meant. In a lot of words, he explained that we are breaking up and he is moving out TOMORROW. Yes, tomorrow. Yes, he waited until now to announce.
I never suspected he was cheating. Not once. I guess I’m just really fucking dumb. I begged for answers. I cried my eyes out. I asked him to stay and not ruin our family. Nothing is stopping him. Eventually, I guess he decided I deserve some explanation at least, so he proceeded to tell me that he is moving on the other side of the country to be with the woman “he is madly in love with”. In very many details, he expressed his infatuation with this woman and how she is everything he’s ever wanted and then some. Looking back, he’s never talked about me like this. His eyes were bright as the sun talking about this woman. Which hurts me like hell.
I have no idea how long he planned this for or why he waited until the literal last second. He also plans on not telling the children right away. He wants us to pretend everything is cool and daddy is going on a work trip (not unusual) until we are ready to explain it to them. I feel like this is wrong but my head is spinning with so many thoughts.
I don’t want to be a single mom. I dread the day I’ll wake up alone and it’s way closer than I want it to be. I don’t think I can do this and I feel like such a failure. I’ll have to start working again - haven’t done that in 8 years. During these times, it’s uncertain how successful I’ll be getting a job. We are (well, WERE) doing very well financially but I don’t know what the future looks like. I’m just scared, hurt, and very very confused.
What’s there for me to do? I know that I probably need a lawyer. Maybe a therapist too...
TL;DR: my husband announced that he is leaving us tomorrow
Submitted June 05, 2020 at 08:51PM by WHODIS-21 https://ift.tt/3cCm3Gu
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