I am heartbroken. We were together for 15 years, married for 3.5. We met when we were 18. We were best friends and extremely close all the time. I felt so loved and appreciated by her. Things weren't perfect, we had our share of problems and had hard times but we managed to get through it together.
I had a rough childhood and didn't have many friends. I was kind of shy and had trouble with girls.
When I met her my life has changed. She opened me to the world and i became a better person with a lot of social connections. I studied BA, MA and we both have good jobs.
Couple of years ago problems started. I started to suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. At first it was very overwhelming and i was very scared. It hurt our relationship and we put off having kids.
we bought a house that was in the early stages of construction. We took a big mortgage and rented an apartment. Financial problems started to come up.
She started complaining about our relationship and sex life. I really made an effort to turn my life around. I started going to therapy and overall my anxiety improved. About six months ago she had a miscarriage. It really impacted her. She became depressed and started talking about breaking up. The closer it got to the point our house was ready and we needed to move in it, the scarier it got for her.
She started leaving the house for the weekend to her parents and stayed a lot with her friends. She became very harsh towards me. Tald me she didn't love me and don't want to have kids with me. Our sexual life stopped almost entirely. she became distant. She told me she wont stay with me if she won't get her feelings for me back. We decided to rent out our new house which is in the suburbs and rent in the city.
After couple of months things improved and we got closer, but yersayday she decided she doesn't loves me as a man but only as a friend and just left me heartbroken alone at home.
I have done so much for her in the last year. Basically I carried out the entire house operating, I really turned my life around. Started on ssri, started working out daily. Became happier and social but nothing was enough.
All my friends and family encouraged me to end the relationship since she is hurting me on daily basis and dont care. I am good looking with a good job and good education. Im still young and have all my life in front of me but its just hurts so much. She is my best friend and the closest person I got by far. She is the first person I can be truly myself around her with all the quirks. We share the same interests and overall very compatible. Just couple of days ago i came home and she truly looked joyous to see me. So i really don't get it. Even now she worries about me and I feel that the love is still there. She decided she wants to take a break and nothing I did managed to persuade her otherwise. I am confused and lost. I feel so alone. What should I do? Sorry if it was long... TL;DR My wife is leaving me and I don't know what to do. Should I keep on fighting or let her go?
Submitted February 01, 2019 at 03:25AM by michaelglodberg http://bit.ly/2UyAPFg
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