My (25M) boyfriend has a serious coke addiction and accidentally broke my (24F) wrist during an argument.

We’ve been together for over 4 years, but we’ve broken up several times over the same argument. I want to quit taking narcotics and he doesn’t. This year we’ve been getting on great but lately I’ve noticed his coke habit has been getting worse and if he’s doing it I find it very hard to say no. About 2 months ago I explained to him that ingesting all this shit is making me very sad to the point where I’m considering suicide. (I’ve always suffered with depression and anxiety so this isn’t anything surprising) He admitted that he’s the enabler and if he’s doing it I’m doing it so we said we’d do a whole month off drink weed coke the lot! Our first night out supposedly sober we ended up having a few drinks (3 in total) and we got home pretty early and I was really happy he had gone the one night without coke! When we got to bed I rolled over to fall asleep, a few minutes later I heard a big snort and I hop up and he’s doing out lines on the table so I snapped and tried to take it off him where he then basically fought me for it. Turns out he had fractured my wrist.

After this he felt so guilty and ashamed he said he’d quit and go to therapy and even told all his friends and deleted any number he had associated with drugs from his phone, I thought “maybe we needed something extreme like this to happen so we can be healthy” but I was wrong.

He’s been doing coke more than ever now , lying to me about it, I’m only finding out because his friends are telling me. He’s constantly angry and giving out to me for stupid things. He took coke everyday last week and i told him I fear he’s going to start doing it in work now. He’s hasn’t gone to therapy at all, coming up with every excuse under the sun. Constantly telling me he’s fine and it’s under control but it’s clearly not! He doesn’t seem to care , telling me we’re not supposed to be together because he’s going to take drugs for fun whenever he wants and I can’t stop him. What hurts is that he’s such an amazing person other than this and I’m afraid I’ll regret throwing away 4 years because I genuinely thought we’d get through this and I’d marry this guy .

I don’t want to control him , I know I can’t do that but I just want him to cut down at least. I just don’t know what to do now.

TL;DR Boyfriend of 4 years has a massive coke addiction, we’ve always argued about it but seemed to cool off every once in a while. Accidentally broke my wrist whilst I was trying to take a bag of coke off him. Guilty & ashamed he promised he’d quit and go to therapy but hasn’t bother and is taking coke more than ever now.

Submitted October 02, 2018 at 11:40AM by lovelycans131 https://ift.tt/2OA9inH