Tl;dr-my boyfriend has been making a lot of jokes about my intelligence and realizing how mean they are when they come out, apologizes at the time, but keeps doing it
Basically; my boyfriend is a really really smart dude. He graduated college a year early, has a degree in programming and analytics and now has a full time salaried job. I am still in school, working part time at a coffee shop, and struggling financially. He knows all of this and often makes jokes about me being stupid; and it sucks. I was telling him that the Marines sent me an intrest email because of my status as a USTF black belt; and he said "they wanted me for my brains not my body". He also saw a reddit post with an age gap relationship; and started making comments about how maturity was different in age gap relationships, and how it was even in ours. He said he was more mature than me because "he plays Eve Online and I play Wizard101". Again as a "joke" but it was just mean. Hes been so kind to me for months and months until recently when he has subconciously decided to show me he true feelings about me. Its eating away at me, the fact he doesnt think I'm as smart as him. His jokes hurt, and I want them to stop. I may be overreacting, but I'm already anxious about him leaving me; I dont need this kind of anxiety fuel.
Sorry for the rant, I just cant get it off my mind. We already "dealt" with these things when they happened, so I dont want to bring them up again and upset him. He gets over things much easier than I do.
Submitted October 01, 2018 at 11:47AM by Bryleigh98 https://ift.tt/2NViqDY
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