Peed myself during a seizure in front of my new boyfriend. He had to clean up my pee. Totally humiliated. Don’t know how to deal with it.

Tldr: I had a seizure in front of my bf. Peed myself during said seizure. Boyfriend had to shower me off and clean the pee up. He’s been a little distant lately. I’m utterly humiliated. Don’t know if I should just pretend it never happened or apologize to my bf for him having to clean up after a grown ass woman who peed herself.

I 21F have issues with stress induced seizures. Things have been stressful lately. My boyfriend 23M of 4 months was over and my memory is kind of foggy but I got worked up over something and then everything went black. Long story short I dropped, seized, and well. I peed myself. When I came to my boyfriend had carried me into the bathroom and gotten me in the shower (he knows I have seizures but hasn’t seen one and I have explicitly told him NOT to call an ambulance unless I choke on vomit or I’m not breathing. Can’t afford that bill so he followed procedure. Ambulance only if I’m dying). I was pretty out of it but from what I gather, my bf got me out of my clothes, cleaned me off in the shower, put me to bed and then cleaned my pee off the floor. I woke up and he was sleeping next to me, but he was kind of standoffish and weird. He was really concerned about me, made me breakfast, made sure I had water and then he had to leave for work. He’s not texting me as much and I’m totally humiliated. I fucking PEED myself in front of my boyfriend. As a grown ass woman I peed my pants. I’m so embarrassed that I had a seizure at all in front of him, peeing myself is just the cherry on top of the humiliation. I really like my boyfriend. I don’t know how to address this, if I should just pretend it never happened? Please help, I’m so goddamn embarrassed.

Submitted February 08, 2022 at 12:28AM by peedmyselfseizure https://ift.tt/d1btcwP