As the title says. I am no longer in love with my partner of 8 years. As you can imagine, we literally grew up together, which makes it so difficult to accept for me. We've been living together for 5 years now. He is my first real relationship, so I never have dealt with break ups before.
I feel extremely lost and depressed because of this situstion. I thought it was maybe just a phase and it will go over. But honestly I've had these feelings for over a year now.
The point is, I feel trapped, I feel like we grew apart and I have changed so much that we are not compatible anymore. But I also feel like I will be making a huge mistake by breaking up with him. Everytime I decide I should end the relationship I get doubts and I convince myself that I still love him. He is such a good guy, I'm afraid I will regret my decision. So I don't break up. It's been like this for over a year now.
But I'd rather spend time alone than with him. I get annoyed when I'm around him for too long. Even though I work a lot, so I'm not home most of the time. But when I am home, I almost always sit in another room, else I get annoyed by just his presence. I don't want to be like this.
I often think about how it would be to be single or with someone else. I noticed that I enjoy other guys' attention more lately (no one specific, just random guys). And when I notice someone is interrested in me, I keep thinking "if only I was single".
To me, these are all signs that I'm already one foot out the door. But I just can't seem to accept it. I don't have the balls to end this relationship. I'm lost.
What's holding me back is the fact that we've been so long together, I can't imagine my life without me. He is also such a good guy, he would never do me wrong. He loves me so much. I want him to be happy and I know he is happy with me. I'm also afraid that maybe it's the "seven-year itch" syndrome, I don't know. Also, we live together and have a pet. I don't how we would solve this.
Also, as selfish as it sounds, I don't have any other friends in my life except him, which is making it even harder to end things.
I tried to talk to him about my feelings, but I hate seeing him hurt, so I never told him how I REALLY feel, I just mentioned being less attracted to him a couple of times, but even this was extremely hard for me to tell him.
I guess I just wanted to get this off my chest and hear your advice on how to proceed, I really don't know what to do.
TL;DR! I'm not in love with my partner anymore. I don't have the balls to break up, afraid I will be making a mistake. I feel lost.
Submitted April 11, 2021 at 01:23PM by potverdorienondeju https://ift.tt/3a2bzlk
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