So this just happened and im really shaken up and i feel also beyond sad. Im on mobile so sorry if this ist hard to read. I will try to keep this as short as possible
So me and BF have been together for 6 years. We have a 4y.o son. Me and BF are both mentally ill. For me its chronic depression, ptsd and a few ocd traits. I also just recently got diagnosed and found out that im autistic. My son ist currently getting tested for this too.
BF is also depressed, got diagnosed with adhd and bipolar traits and hes getting more and more out of control with aggressive behavior and sometimes psychosis?
We almost broke up last year after he was very abusive to me, mostly emotionally the years before. Then last year he spit into my face repeatedly, shoved me around which made me fall, pulled my hair and yelled at me. Also threw a bunch of things at me and broke some stuff. I was crying and didnt understand why he did something like this. Our son was home and saw a bit. My neighbors heard us and tried to make me leave my flat. He hit one of them hard enough for them to need to go to the hospital. The police was called and he finally left.
We somehow didnt break up. I almost did though. He said he was really sorry, I believed him. 5 months later we argued again. This time I told him to leave and he did, but then hours later wanted to kill himself and kept texting me. I called the police, they found him and he was admitted into a psych hospital.
They found a drug/med which really REALLY helped him. He was doing VERY good until now. I was so glad I didnt just leave him. I was so proud of him too.
In summer my friend got me a cat for my birthday. My last cat died some years ago and I was so heartbroken and lonely all this time. So when we got him I was so so happy. My son too. They are always playing together and hes so fluffy!! and purring as soon as we make eye contact. We love the cat. My bf does absolutely not. He hates him. Even when the cat does nothing and just lies on my stomach and purrs, he is annoyed at him or tries to get him to leave.
We tried to make some compromises. Didnt really work. Today he got very mad and hit me and the cat with a plush toy (hard) and it was absolutely uncalled for. He said he wanted to hurt or kill him and I will see. Repeatedly. I told him to leave the cat alone. He wouldnt promise me that he would not. I told him that he needed to go then since I cant have him hurt an innocent animal. He wouldnt so I threatened to call the police. He laughed and made rude comments. So I called them. Suddenly while Im still on the phone with them he yells that he will leave. Which he did. Now he is mad at me but I think I did the right thing???
Tomorrow he has a dr appointment to talk about meds and stuff. He mentioned last time that he frequently hears music that nobody else does and they want to see and check on him every two weeks now. possible shizophrenia ?
Im so confused at what to do now... at least my cat and my son are safe.. But im so afraid of tomorrow and to see him again. please has anyone advice for me?
Also CPS has been involved since the first incident, I have been very coorporative. Bf not so much but it was okay until today. They send someone to help our family or just talk to us every week but she is sick right now and idk what to do now
Tl;Dr: abusive past, tried to make it work. Got a cat, he hates him. Wanted to hurt or kill him. Called the police to make him leave. Now he is mad. Advice please
Submitted October 25, 2020 at 12:40PM by vyries https://ift.tt/2TraCdi
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