A week ago yesterday I [19M] kissed my best friend [also 19M] and it resulted in us making out. The next day I made a post about it. Then, we decided to talk about it.
We've been having fun talking and texting leading up to next week, but we never acknowledged our kissing, since we both thought it would be better to talk about it in person first. We sat and talked it out over Dairy Queen, and kept the conversation as lighthearted as possible. I mentioned expecting a normal kiss, but he turned it into making out. I asked what was going through his mind/why he did it, to which he said it he did it out of nervousness. I'll admit that it would be great to keep kissing, but it's most likely out of lust than love. I told him I talked to another friend and posted it to this subreddit as well as the responses I got from each. Even had a good laugh about me talking to the other friend, who I'm pretty sure wants us to date.
The big thing, though, was how kissing would affect our relationship. Both of us had this on our mind the entire week. The fact that we agreed to kiss and ended up making out more than once was definitely saying something, and I said so. He had thought of it too, though said he wasn't really looking for or ready for a relationship, primarily(?) because at the moment he doesn't have any income from home or college to financially support himself (if I recall, he has never had a job before, and I'm unsure about what will happen with driving on campus). We also agreed it isn't best to rush into things, since it felt like stuff was going very fast. I kind of realized at that point I wasn't as ready as I thought I was either, as I have some stuff I want to sort out first. Maybe there's some underlying feelings in there, but he did say he wasn't romantically interested in me (or anyone). I think if I truly was looking for a relationship, it would hurt, but it didn't. He's my best friend first, and I'm not letting anything spoil that. We jokingly agreed that we'd let the future be a mystery because, who knows?
TL;DR We talked about what happened, relationship really isn't the best for us right now due to our own personal reasons, but our friendship is still incredibly strong.
Submitted July 24, 2020 at 03:32PM by freakishfrenchhorn https://ift.tt/30NtxCz
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