Not all of my family. Just the ones I live with. I'm a huge supporter of Black Lives Matter and I just had a heated argument with my grandparents (My legal guardians) about it and it left me in tears. They were saying shit like 'Black people think they are entitled', 'All lives matter', etc.
They are white and I am half black. You can see why i would get upset when a couple of white people sat there and told me that Black people are entitled and essentially that their lives don't matter. I tried my hardest to argue but I just ended up sobbing. They yelled at me and didn't listen to me talk after I had to sit there and get scolded for supporting BLM.
I'm a teenager and am still in highschool so packing up my shit and leaving isn't an option. I just feel so disgusted by the things they say and am ashamed that I have to call them my family. It's almost like they forgot that I'm half black. It's like they are disregarding half of my identity and it really hurts.
They don't value my opinions or treat me like I'm actually here and concious with a working brain. They think because I'm a 'kid' that I don't know what I'm talking about and that I don't deserve to be listened to be taken seriously. Everyday they watch fox news and nothing else. I stay in my room by myself to avoid them and their politics at all costs.
I feel like I'm going insane and I just want to get the hell out of this house. How do I cope with this until I can actually leave? Has anybody else felt this way, because I feel so stuck.
TL;DR: I (f15) hate my guardians (f66) and (m67). They're white and I'm half black. We have opposing views on everything and I don't feel like they respect or take me seriously as a person. How do I cope with them until I can get out of the house?
Submitted July 24, 2020 at 11:42AM by yoobongcha https://ift.tt/3hzR4gU
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