[32F] I've been very unlucky with men throughout my life, now I feel too old and unattractive and want to give up

This morning I saw a picture on facebook of a young, beautiful woman in an amazing dress, getting ready for a night out. She's the girlfriend of the man I'd spent many months with a huge crush on. It was a striking reminder of something that I've been thinking about over and over these last few months - who would choose me over a beautiful woman like her?

I just want to give up on men and dating. I've had such a hard time, been rejected by every man I've been interested in, wasted years on dating apps and got nowhere, and only two men have ever shown any kind of interest in me - and one of them was married! That first 'offer' of sex (with the single man, in case anyone was wondering) was when I was 27, it was like I'd suddenly become visible after years of being invisible to everyone.

I don't even know what to do anymore. I've tried improving myself in every way I can think of, tried every tactic like dating apps and speed dating and new hobbies, but all I ever get is no. I'm so tired of hearing no.

I feel so emotionally drained after all the work I've put in over the years, only to get nowhere. It feels like I've been fighting a battle for years, and all I've got to show for it now are scars. It makes me believe that there's no room for me in the dating world. It doesn't matter what I think about myself, or how I look - I'm just not wanted.

tl;dr thinking about giving up on dating after a lifetime of rejection.

Submitted October 28, 2018 at 02:11AM by silentskip https://ift.tt/2OUWXeY