About a month ago I found the courage to tell my crush I like her and she said yes to a date. This is my second ever relationship and I have a bit of a fear of dating because the first one did not go well. To make a long story short I pushed things to far to fast and my ex ended up breaking up with me, I understand now that it was completely my fault but at the time it devastated it also didn't help that I was suffering from a bad depression at the time which I think affected the relationship.
That was about 2 years ago and today my depression and insecurities about myself are practically gone and I've regained confidence in myself, however I have a lot of fears and insecurities about my current relationship like for example that it's not going well and that I'm not good enough for her and things like that.
To give you a bit of insight on the situation, as I stated above my depression has mostly gone away, I still have therapy and take medication but it has improved immensely, on the other hand my girlfriend has incredibly bad social anxiety to the point where she cancelled our first date because she was too anxious, and she also used to take antidepressants and do therapy. Another thing is that we are in the same class but never talk to each other at school and just stay in our own friend group although she is often alone because of her (and partly mine) social anxiety and I feel bad for that, we do sometimes talk on DMs after school but I don't know if that makes it better, we do however go out every weekend. I also don't know how to progress the relationship the most physical contact we've had is me putting my arm around her when we were watching a movie. I really like her and she seems to like me too but I don't know if I'm a good enough boyfriend and how to better myself if I'm not.
TL;DR: Me and my girlfriend don't talk much because of her social anxiety and I'm afraid I'm not a good boyfriend and I don't know how I can be a better boyfriend
Submitted March 18, 2023 at 05:13AM by Hecbas https://ift.tt/Ba8CZxv
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