My 4 aunts are also my sisters

I’m on mobile and really don’t know where to start but i’m going to try my best…

So yesterday I finally found out the truth behind my family tree after being lied to my whole life.

My grandmother (35 at the time, now closer to 60) was married to a man, we’ll call him M(32 at the time now 55 I believe), for 12 years. My mother (39 now) who was 16 at the time and M started a “consensual” sexual relationship and at 17 my mother had me (22F). Now my grandmother had no idea I was M’s child until I was 2 months old which is also when she found out about my mother and m’s relationship. Which continued until I was 3 months. But during that that my grandmother and M were married they had 4 girls. So those 4 girls are my aunts as well as my half sisters. I am still trying to wrap my head around this as much as I can

Fast forward 2 years, my grandmother moved away from M with me, my mother and her 4 other kids and she started dating S(who was 40 at the time now he is 60). Well S and my mother (19 at that time) started sneaking around and ending up dating. S would later end up marrying my mother and have 2 children with her. Well when my grandmother found out they told her she needed to “get over it and move on”

So now I am trying to piece everything together and decide what I want to do with my life. My mother has lied to me my entire life and her and I do not speak anymore, it’s been about 3 months. Now I honestly never want to speak to my mother again but that means I have to sacrifice my relationship with my 2 younger brothers which absolutely kills me. So at this point I don’t know what to do.

If you have any other questions I’ll do my best to answer. I’m honestly just a mess mentally.

TL;DR - My mother had an affair at 16 with her 32 year old step dad which ended up being me into the world. My 4 aunts are also my half sisters. My mom stole my grandmother’s boyfriend years later and ended up marrying him and having 2 kids with him.

Edit: Thank you all so much for the kind words I have received. It means more than you know. With that said I totally recognize my mother is a victim and has been through so much, but she was and is not a good mother. She has inflicted so much trauma and pain on me, more than I can bare at times. I do have a therapist and am working on healing. Now as for S and my mother while legally they are married they haven’t seen or spoken in over a year. He was my first and only father figure and he abused me and she knew, just a small insight she at time would hold me while S would hit me with a belt. But I am okay now, we’ll at least i’m working on being okay. As for now I am not ready to forgive my mother and that’s okay, all in due time.

Submitted May 03, 2021 at 03:53PM by jhope864 https://ift.tt/2RnfIto