So I have been with my BF for 2 years now. We started off as a casual fwb type thing, though he didn't have much experience to begin with but I still appreciated his company and effort overall. When we had first started seeing eachother, he told me he had trouble keeping an erection as he had come from a year dry spell, I had still been very sexually active up to that point and never took it personal. When we began dating, slowly we were able to improve the sex by a lot, and even though sex wasn't always satisfying for me, I was glad we were having it at all.
Our sex went from bad, to good, to really good and now to shit. One of the issues is that he never listens to what I like despite me trying to guide him, I'll guide him and it'll feel great then he tries to put his own spin on it and I have to stop him because he starts to repulse me. Eventually I stopped asking for foreplay and I mostly just let him have at me when he's in the mood like a ragdoll. Everytime I try to guide him he NEVER listens and that's exhausting on my end. I can only get off by touching myself and I can tell that my lack of sexual interest is starting to hurt him. We've tried viagra, toys, watching porn together, roleplay, you name it. At this point I feel disgusted when we try to have sex. I've stopped enjoying kissing and really any sexual act with him.
I am not repulsed by our relationship- We have a good relationship and we're able to communicate. He's very attractive, I get turned on by his appearance. He's beautiful inside and out. We are quite affectionate with eachother (just no sex) and love each other's company. He knows I'm repulsed by sex with him as we try to resolve our differences but everytime it requires effort he does very little to meet me in the middle. I want to be with him for the years to come, we want to have children in the next 2-3years. But I can't get past the disgusting feeling I have when we try to have sex. We aren't in a position right now to afford couples counselling, and it's a really bad time to do so as we're in a pandemic and services are limited. Would anyone have insight or advice? Has this ever happened to you? Were you able to get over it?
TL;DR - I feel sexually repulsed by my bf, but very other aspect of our relationship is good and I don't know how to get over it.
Submitted February 12, 2021 at 06:51PM by chrohaway83 https://ift.tt/3jHzjPa
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