I’m an East Indian woman. I don’t know if other women of colour can relate to this but I had this complex growing up when it came to dating: no matter how beautiful, kind, funny, or likeable I am, I’m not a white girl.
Growing up, I always felt like the standard of beauty was always white— which causes me to grow angry with a lot of blonde haired and blue eyed women. Personally, I don’t know what caused it. It always seemed like white girls were on top when it came to guys liking them and dating them.
The older I got, the more confident I got. I starting focusing on my looks, I genuinely like to think that I’m good person. Then I started dated and I had short lived relationships with men. My longest and most significant relationship was 8 months. He never wanted to take pictures together and never acknowledged that we were dating on social media. Almost like he was ashamed to be with me. Now he has a new girlfriend that he plasters all over social media who just happens to be white. Unfortunately, this is making me feel all the things I felt before— knowing it doesn’t matter what I do, I’m not white. Most of the guys I have dated are white guys because I don’t like dating Indian men because of the way they’re raised (not all of course). Unfortunately, white or Indian are the only 2 races my family allow me to date, which is limiting so I’m reconsidering dating whoever.
Even on social media or dating apps (which I’m off now), a lot of men fetishize me. They don’t really care about my culture they more so want to be able to tell their friends “I’ve slept with an indian girl before”. I’m so much more than that.
I guess I’m not really asking for advice, I just needed a place to vent. Maybe people can relate or give me a different perspective on things, feel free to comment.
TLDR: I always felt like me being Indian was a reason people don’t want to date me and they’d rather be with someone white.
Submitted September 21, 2020 at 10:18PM by Shiv_Vin https://ift.tt/35WjKOF
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