I knew this day would eventually come. We had been going for almost 2 and a half year in an ldr. Today he over stepped a boundary I don't think I can ever forgive him for.
He's always had a very high sex drive (as most teen boys do) and I always felt like I had to be ready to be sexual with him as I didn't want to disappoint him. We have had sex before but I really pushed myself to do it as if I didn't I was scared he'd start looking for someone else.
I told him a while ago that the next time we meet we can have sex but recently I've realised I should listen to my body and only have sex with him when I'm ready to. Today I told him this and at first he was completely accepting and promised to never expect me to have sex with him at this age as I'm still essentially a child and I'm still figuring things out.
But after 15 minutes he must've realised he's all of a sudden not okay with that and started saying stuff like "fuck that I'm not waiting for a second time" and he said if we Did nt have sex he couldn't be in this relationship.
I calmly explained to him he shouldn't expect sex to be part of a relationship this young (he's one of those people that think every 16 year old is having sex so expects us to do it).
He said I was a cunt as I told him we would have sex but then I realised I wasn't ready and took it back. I think it's okay for him to be disappointed but he called me a dickshit and a nun. I told him that was it, and he says "What you gonna tell your mum when she asks what happened? Cuz if you don't tell her I'll message her right fucking now". He knows if my mum ever found out I had sex she would literally disown me.
I have never felt so objectified in my life, I should've just waited till I was older to get in a relationship. Was it ok of him to expect sex when I've told him I'm not ready? Later on today he realised how badly he messed up and took back everything he said And is all of a sudden completely fine with me not being ready.
I'm sorry first time posting on here, this is messy and all over the place but to whoever read this, thank you so much.
TL;DR bf expects sex but I'm not ready to
Submitted May 25, 2019 at 01:41PM by curiouslilsheep http://bit.ly/2YRxJyG
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