I (F37) caught my boyfriend (M38) watching cam girls after promising more sexual intimacy an hour before.

Im upset guys. I’m hurt, and utterly grossed out.

Background: my boyfriend and I have been together three years. We have had sex issues for the last two. It stems from his lack of sex drive well at least (as I found out tonight) regarding me. We had good sex the first year. We have had communication about this and he has told me he will try more. He has had hormones tested and he is fine there.

Fast forward: A few months back I walked in on him watching porn and masturbating. Which was embarrassing but I get it sometimes you just want to get off. This after a lack of sexual intimacy not on my side but his. However, tonight fucked me up. Literally we talked about our lack of sex and he told me he was nervous about initiating and I told him I’d initiate more to help. We literally have sex maybe once a month. So, fast forward an hour later and I walk into his office to say goodnight.

And I see it....a half naked cam girl. He clicks the window closed but I see it. This was one hour after he told me if he gets horny he will in the future act on it. He admitted he was watching it and understands this wasn’t cool. He also admitted he has in the past watched cam girls. Again, this was an hour after a deep conversation on these issues.

Uh..so this feels like a complete slap in the face. I’ve gained 20 pounds over the last three years but shit...I still feel attractive and feel like I deserve a man that wants me. He swears he does but his actions speak louder. Y’all? Is this a dealbreaker?

TL;DR boyfriend doesn’t initiate sex or seem interested and I caught him watching cam girls.

Submitted September 05, 2021 at 10:23PM by daysxdesign https://ift.tt/3kV0bfz