I’ve (24f) have been hiding my sugar baby/escort past from my fiancé (26m). Is it bad to keep it a secret?

So when I was in college I had no income and was struggling to pay for everything. At 20 I decided to join Seeking arrangements with a friend mostly as a joke, but then I actually started getting attention from men on the site. For about 8 months I was being paid to go out to lunches and dates with much older men. Just spending time, talking, and maybe sending some nudes (without my face in them). But one guy (m64) was pretty consistent for a few months and I did sleep with him one time. Only once. I felt so disgusting after that I literally went home and cried and threw up. Again this was all out of necessity not desire. I deleted my profile that same night. And just ate ramen and was broke. Fast forward years later, I am now happily engaged to a very Christian man. I know he would immediately end things with me if he ever found out. I know I can never tell him about it, but i still have this feeling in my gut that I need to tell him. Only two of my friends knew about it and neither would tell anyone ever. There is no evidence of my profile left online for him to stumble upon either.

TL;DR my fiancé doesn’t know I used to be a sugar baby and I feel bad taking this secret to my grave. Should I tell him even if I’m 100% sure he will end things?

Submitted January 24, 2020 at 02:43PM by Witty_Struggle https://ift.tt/2Rn0HVY