I [21M] just got back out of prison after I commited a serious crime, before I was locked up my mom said she didn’t want to ever see me again. Should I contact her ?

I was convicted at age 17 for killing somebody with an illegal firearm. I cam explain it and I’ll try to do so while keeping it as short as a post as I can. I grew up in a ghetto place and my real father wasn’t around until my mom got with my stepdad. I grew up poor, but my stepdad treated me as his own som and taught me everything. I miss him and I am still haunted by the incident.

He was having problems with another guy who was crazy, long story short he was beating him on the street and my stepdad passed away from brain trauma. My sister saw and she had called me while screaming and crying. I pulled up a few minutes later and I shot the guy dead.

I waited for the cops and I was arrested. Long story short, I got in big troubke for having an illegal firearm and I was charged with manslaughter and possession of an illegal firearm. I was sentenced to 4 years and I got out a few months early for good behavior and I’m on parole. I’m not a bad person. I did what I did trying to save my stepdad and out of anger.

My mom abandoned me and only uncles visited me and my mom never let my sister visit me while I was locked up. I got a straight job with my uncle’s mechanic shop since I know how to work on cars and he is renting me his second house on his property. I do feel bad about having ended somebody’s life and I am scared. I also miss my mother and I wish she would talk to me. Would it be inconsiderate of el to try and see her again? Or should I let her be?

Tldr: I was in prison for a few years after commiting manslaughter, my mom said she never wanted to see me again and I am finally out and want to talk with her

Submitted January 24, 2020 at 01:12AM by stayStrped909 https://ift.tt/2TSX5gg