I've been with my boyfriend for two years. We've had our share of dumb arguments but nothing serious until this last fight.
His work involves real estate development and for the last few months he's been more and more consumed by new projects, deadlines, deals, the usual due to a significant promotion. We're talking about 16-hour work days with one day off. I do my best to be supportive and understand that as much as I want to spend more time with him, that may not always be possible. I work in pharmacology sales and my work involves occasional travel. I live an hour away from the airport and he's about 15-minutes away, so I would stay the night at his condo and then take a cab to the airport since it is way more convenient since my company insists on booking early (7 AM or so) flights. I would usually fly back in the PM and stay with him since I would be exhausted flying back at 11 PM from overseas. No
Due to his work consuming his time, he's been more and more stressed but it's almost like he's projecting it all on me. He gets very irritated at me over almost everything, from trying to talk to him ("stop distracting me"), asking to do things ("don't have time"), coming over ("I'm busy")... you get the gist. I get the occasional show of affection when he wants company.
Last week, I asked him to stay over to go the airport and got "why can't you just not go from your place" as a reply. I asked what was going on and why it was a problem now when he had no objections prior. I wound up opening the floodgates. He snapped and told me that I have always inconvenienced him by having an unnecessary need to be at his condo when I fly and that and I should just suck it up and just stay at my own apartment since I live there after all. He then told me that I'm his worst distraction and need to just stop bothering him with "stupid bullshit" by taking up his time.
I got really upset. He then proceeded to call me emotional, tell me to manage my feelings better, and stop wasting his work time on drama. I hung up the phone and he then proceeded to cancel our plans for the rest of the week and tell me to get my emotions in check before reaching out to him again.
We've barely spoken since then. Communication with him has been very tense and I'm hesitant to ask to go to dinner, hang out, stay over, anything. He hasn't tried to engage in conversation. I get incredibly anxious even thinking about bringing up the idea of even trying to start talk to him since I don't want him snapping at me again. I have anxiety due to a traumatic childhood experience (family member dying of unnatural means) and he knows this.
I'm feeling very not myself after his blow up. I thought he had feelings for me and wanted my company and the fact that I've been a nuisance this whole time really hurts.
Am I really just emotional? Should I just leave him alone and don't engage him and wait for him to talk to me? Help.
Tl;Dr SO of 2 years thinks me wanting to spend time with him is distracting him and that I'm a big baby for him calling me out.
Submitted May 01, 2019 at 07:35PM by throwaway333395 http://bit.ly/2Wmrxh5
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