I [25F] have become bizarrely irritable with my boyfriend [27M] over nothing. It's incredibly out of character for me. What's going on?

Throwaway because I am embarrassed.

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 9 months, and things have been splendid. We never fight, though when we do have disagreements, we channel our thoughts and feelings clearly, through communication. Even when frustration is a big element of our discussions it's channelled in a healthy way.

But recently, two weeks ago, I started getting angry about...nothing. I'm usually very self-aware and good at spotting what's bothering me, but lately, I've been getting upset about literally nothing.

Here's some examples:

Last week, he mentioned he is beating me in a game we play with our friends. I started crying (???) because I wanted to do well and felt like he was "bragging." My behavior caught both of us off guard, and I calmed down and eventually started crying instead because I had a midterm the next day. We chalked it up to a stressful pre-exam day and let it go.

Then, yesterday, I was doing my makeup, and I asked him what he thought about the style I was doing. He said he liked it, but preferred another style I do better. My emotions absolutely dive-bombed, and I started pouting thinking "he doesn't like this makeup," even though that's literally not what he said at all. What the fuck?

After that, he pointed out that I was upset and out of character. He asked if he should take a walk to give me some space and I started SOBBING. Again, what the fuck? I couldn't be calmed down. I went and took a shower and sat in the bathroom and went down an absolute spiral thinking about how maybe I'm the problem in my relationship, maybe my last ex wasn't toxic and manipulative, maybe it's me, after all, didn't I just cry to get my boyfriend to stay in the room instead of going on a walk?

We sat down together afterward I had finally calmed down, and I explained to him that I'm scared and feel like I'm not in control of my emotions, like I'm getting upset about weird things for no reason. He hugged me and tried to help me figure out why (I'm in my first semester of grad school in addition to my job, and am doing both full time; I just finished my midterms; I have little free time; etc) but nothing seemed quite right.

Finally, today, he accidentally dropped my phone. It didn't even break, but I started getting bizarrely angry, in a way really outsized compared to the situation. I caught myself early, and said "I think it's happening again right now, I'm getting angry about literally nothing." We were proud that I managed to catch it early, but I'm still really scared about what's happening.

Reddit, what's going on? I really want to underscore how out of character this is for me. I've never been one to get THIS upset about little things, I always have a good rein on my emotions -- or at the very least, am aware of what they are and why I'm having them. I can't pinpoint anything about these and they make me nervous and feel unlike myself. What do I do?

Some notes: I am under a bit of stress, but have always managed stress well. I'm not on a new birth control, I've been on the same one (really, two -- implant and oral contraceptive) for 2 years, and just oral contraceptive for 7 years before that. Due to that, pretty sure I'm not pregnant. No changes in relationship with boyfriend; if anything, we're more in love every day, our sex life is healthy, and we spend tons of quality time together. I only lash out at him, though.

TL;DR: In the past two weeks I have had several outbursts where I get bizarrely angry or upset over literally nothing, and only at my boyfriend. It is so incredibly out of character that it is shocking and scaring me. What is wrong with me?

Submitted November 04, 2018 at 12:17PM by EveningBeginning https://ift.tt/2PgzBRe