My grandmother got a bloody nose yesterday and she had to go to the hospital because she is on bloodthinners. Apparently blood got into her lungs and one of her lungs failed. The doctors had to do 2 procedures and she is now sedated and on a ventilator. I called the hospital this morning to ask how shes doing and they said she is stable but do not know when she will wake up. She cannot breathe on her own.
I've never cried so much in my life, my eyes were still dry when I woke up. I know shes alive, but I dont want my last memory of her to be unconscious in a hospital, so I am not visiting, it is too painful and I'm afraid I'll just break.
I've dealt with loss before with pets, but never with a human being. All I can do is hope she gets better. But I am just so so anxious and sad. My hands were trembling last night and my teeth were chattering because I was so worried. I don't know what I'm looking for here but hopefully i posted in the right place.
TL;DR: Grandmother is on a ventilator, dont know when she will wake up. I am anxious and sad and feel lost.
Edit: thank you so much for your kind words, I really appreciate it so much. Its good to know I'm not alone. I ended up going to see her and it was very painful but I held her hand for a while..
Submitted November 04, 2018 at 06:47AM by insAnnA_ty https://ift.tt/2qrFQTd
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