My family uses me[27f] for money and I’m tired.

My family uses me[27f] for money and I’m tired.

This is going to be long but I really need help. I want someone to hear me out and suggest how I can live my life better.

I live with my pensioner mother[73], my half brother [50+] and my half sister[45+] both of my siblings have not done ANYTHING in their entire life and have no source of income AT ALL. Till the time I turned 18, I didn’t know they were my half-siblings and they lives off my mother’s income. When I turned 18 I was told that my biological father (my moms second husband) abandoned my mom and me and he’s filthy rich (which is true). I have never seen or heard from my father apart from stalking him on Facebook or Instagram and his life is PERFECT. I never confronted because he’s powerful and I fear that getting in touch with him may ruin my life. I think of this because my brother claims that he couldn’t work in his lifetime because my father used his influence to kick him out from jobs. (Which I don’t believe).

I started working since I was 18 and took up call Center jobs to support my family. I finished my graduation and then studied law while I was still working part time. I was 25 when I completed my law school and I had no guidance on what I needed to do further. Again, I took up a call Center job while I was still hunting for a good legal profile to work at. My siblings blame my biological father for their failure and expect me to help them, hence, I took up a loan to enroll my sister into a makeup school. I quit my call Center job as I thought my sister would help me while I look for jobs in my field.

Before I took up the loan I realised that I have a panic attack disorder I suffered with severe anxiety. Taking that loan was already a huge risk and then Covid happened. It’ had been a year that I was unemployed and mentally unstable until October 2020.

Now I work at a call Center again and I am 27. I will be turning 28 next month and I have a screwed up credit score, a life and siblings that don’t help me at all. I am tired of all of this and I can’t help but crib about not getting any help from anyone. Friends I knew my age have got their own cars and got married and started a family. I am here helping people who do not even let me live my life well.

TL;DR I support a widowed mother and two half siblings aged 45+, my biological father abandoned me and I am stuck paying off bills of people I think shouldn’t be my responsibility. Please suggest me on how I could get out of this and create a life for myself. :’(

EDIT: I am going to make some serious changes now. All the responses really mean a lot. I felt like I’m having a conversation with someone elder who finally understands how important little decisions of life are. I have always missed this kind of proper guidance. Thank you everyone.

Submitted April 01, 2021 at 08:47AM by ferrylander https://ift.tt/3rJNSnH