My [36F] husband [30M] keeps on giving his best friends [30s] the play by play of us trying to have a baby and now I don't want to even talk to HIM about it

I suffer from a long history of infertility. This happened before I met my husband - I went through about 6 years of surgeries, meds, injections, IUIs, and miscarriages. My last miscarriage was 4 years ago.

My husband I are recently married and we want children. Knowing that this would be hard and that I am getting older we started to see a specialist. My insurance covers a majority of the costs related to IVF but we couldn't start an IVF cycle until February so we tried one cycle of oral meds and planned intercourse.

My husband starts to tell EVERYONE we are trying to have a baby, including his co-workers at his holiday party whom I literally just met and he barely knows. It was beyond embarrassing, We see a marriage counselor every 2-3 weeks and I brought this up to him. The counselor pointed out that he's not respecting my feelings and my husband says he feels he should be able to at least tell his best friends so that they can support us. I explained that my history of miscarriages makes me not want to tell ANYONE until about 15 weeks (my last miscarriage was at 12 weeks, after we had heard a healthy heart beat 3 times).

I reluctantly agreed that when we did get pregnant he could tell ONLY his best friend (30M) and his best friend's wife (31F) and I did so reluctantly, as a compromise.

This entire thing has since exploded. He tells them EVERYTHING and it has gotten incredibly upsetting. I had gotten an ultrasound done a few weeks ago that showed 3 good size follicles, triggered and confirmed ovulation. I really thought that maybe this time, it would be easy.

I don't have a blood test for pregnancy until Monday, but I have tested at home yesterday and today, which could be a little early but within the time frame of early pregnancy tests. They both came back negative.

I regret now doing any of this while he was home. He immediately told his friend/friend's wife what I was doing, like live as it was happening and I was incredibly upset. I told him to stop and he told me "fine whatever, you win". Like as if I am winning fucking anything out of this entire situation. I am at the point now where I don't want to tell him anything and I would rather just hide it all from him if it means I don't have to be reminded how much of a failure I am as a woman every single fucking day.

TL;DR: Would it be wrong if I [36F] hid each step toward getting pregnant from my husband [30M] because he broadcasts each step live to his friends?

Submitted January 23, 2020 at 01:00PM by artemis908 https://ift.tt/2Ro80g0