I (23F) am about to start my third job now that my partner (24M) is on his third month with no income

TL;DR My partner is out of work, appearing to not make an effort to find work, and now I’m working all the time to make ends meet and I don’t know if I can continue like this.

I’m feeling increasingly out of my mind as every day goes by. My partner was laid off in October. He was set to receive 2 more paychecks based on his severance package. The day he was let go, we chatted and I let him know I love and support him and that I’m willing to pick up more shifts while he gets back on his feet. I currently work two jobs, 1 is full time with a nonprofit that I LOVE, the other is a bartending job on the weekends, so I’m working 7 days a week currently. My partner has had minimal communication with me about his job search, and really anything that is going on in his life. When I check in to see how he’s doing, he avoids the question and redirects to something else. I’m worried about him, but can’t help if I don’t know what’s going on. Recently I saw the amount he has remaining in his checking account and we will be lucky to make March rent if nothing changes. I asked why he didn’t tell me it was this bad, told him I could have been working my bartending job more than just the weekends, but he had no answer. I am horrified for so many reasons, I’m worried we’ll lose our housing, that I could lose my job and my health insurance (he is still under his parents insurance so he won’t lose it for another two years), and that I’m losing a person that I love with no idea how to stop or help it. I’m applying for a third job, to try to make ends meet, but I am feeling more and more exhausted and helpless as the days go by. I come home and there’s always more work to be done (dishes in the sink, litter boxes to be cleaned, floors to be swept vacuumed, etc) so my free time is spent cleaning our living space. He applied for unemployment last week, only after I came home from work and the sink full of dishes made me cry. In total over the past three months he has applied for 10 jobs, and been unwilling to seek part time work in the interim. I don’t know what to do to make this situation better anymore. I feel like every day I am a broken record and my cup is empty and I don’t find joy in anything anymore. I love him and I want to support him but I don’t know how to anymore when I’m receiving no communication from him. I don’t know if I’m being unreasonable or what steps to take to fix this strain anymore.

Submitted January 23, 2020 at 07:05PM by ReduceReuseRefuse https://ift.tt/2tMW8LM