My mom died when I was around 7ish and my brother was 10ish, it was hard on us and our dad who is a great guy don't get me wrong but he got kinda distant for a little bit and drank a lot. He was still our dad and helped us but my brother took on a big brother role and was like a father figure and we got really close cause of it. I love and respect what he did at such a young age and were closer than most siblings our age cause of it. Tho he took a big brother/father figure role it meant it was hard for us to really be kids and goof off together and so I avoided doing anything wrong in front of him cause he'd just reprimand me like an adult. I am now 15 and he's 18 and its been years now and our dad is almost 7 years sober at this point and is a great dad my brother never gave up the father figure role. I can't leave the house even if I tell my dad without getting his permission too, I can't do anything even remotely "rebellious" cause he will tell on me in an instant or punish me himself (which means locking me in my room and almost picking me up to put me back in if I leave.
About a week ago we were just watching tv and the wall of being responsible broke down and it was amazing he was like the kid he was. We were goofing off and play fighting for a few minutes but then his responsible side kicked back in and he got off of me and just sat there. I had enough of him doing that and flat out said "God dammit, I respect you looking after me when mom died but that was 8 YEARS AGO, stop with parenting me and be a fucking teen with me. I don't want a big brother who's all responsible I just want a fun brother who goofs off and does fun shit like me." He told me to not disrespect him like that and went to his room.
I feel bad how I said it but I meant what I said, I'm tired of him "parenting" me and I know its been hard on both of us without our mom but I think it would have been better if I had a FRIEND during all of it instead of a second dad. Don't get me wrong I appreciate what he did and him putting aside his childhood for me but it hurts to see him like that and wish he would change now cause its over and I want him to be happy too
Advice on this whole situation?
TL;DR:My brother has parented me most of my life cause our mom died and I'm tired of him doing that cause I just want a fun big brother who goofs off and has fun too.
Submitted January 05, 2020 at 03:54PM by Big_broAITA https://ift.tt/2QrOnmW
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