She said we don't have to do it after I told her there's no way I'd be interested. But, I'm shocked she would even be into it in the first place. I feel horrible, but ever since she brang it up I find myself becoming less attracted to her. Even just the mention of it has triggered my insecurities enormously, as I feel now I'm not enough. How do I work past this? The thought of sharing the woman I love just destroys me. And I feel betrayed they she would even entertain the idea.
I also feel like a bit of a loser for not being up for it in the first place. It seems like allowing swinging is the "sexually progressive" thing to do. I consider myself very progressive, but this is just too much.
I also worry, that even though she said we don't have to do it, her desire to experience swinging will lead her astray in the future. She was heartbroken when I told her I felt that maybe we aren't compatiable if that's where her interests lie, she didn't think it was a big deal. We fell head over heels in love in just 2 months and have been seeing each other under 6 months.
Am I just being neurotic? Should I just try to swing even though the thought of it makes me feel ill? I would really appreciate any advice.
Please excuse any errors I hastily wrote this on my phone.
TLDR: girlfriend suggested swinging to me. I did not expect it from her and now I'm starting to feel less attracted to her and am contemplating our compatibility.
Submitted December 31, 2019 at 12:12AM by kawhiNpaulwillrunLA https://ift.tt/2Qdz9C4
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