Okay so I’m sorry if this is a really long post but I just need to get this off my chest.
Me and my boyfriend have been together for almost 6 years. We have been close for about 10 years (we met early high school, started dating at 17). We moved in together pretty much as soon as we both started dating due to bad home lives.
Now our relationship didn’t start with that flirty sort of aspect due to us already being best friends. At this rate we were so attached to each other we became to rely on each other and depend on each other extremely early in our relationship.
We did however have a rocky start as my partner struggled to ‘get it up’ over me specifically. I had let myself go pretty badly and I do not blame him for this. I could see how badly he wanted to. We were also really young, and looking back I realise that a lot of mistakes were made because we weren’t emotionally mature enough for that sort of relationship.
A little bit about him. I have never met anyone so genuine, kind and I’ve never cared more about anyone in my life. These days we get along so well, we rarely argue, we face challenges together and cooks, cleans and loves me more than anything. So within our relationship we are amazing. However, we have our differences and this is where things get tough. He is introverted, and withdrawn whilst I’m extraverted and excitable. I crave more that he is capable of giving me. He is afraid of everything so there is no excitement there. He is extremely vanilla sexually and he doesn’t want more, and doesn’t want to try more. I need more.
I bugged him about the sex and for the first time last night in a long time he couldn’t get it up over me. I feel defeated. I feel like I’m not good enough. Here is this perfect man and we need different things. Because of this I find myself bored. I sometimes have feelings toward other guys (usually sexually, sometimes it’s about their personalities e.g they do exciting things). I hate it but I can’t help it. I’m lost reddit please help me.
Tl;dr I love my boyfriend so much but I feel like our personalities don’t match and I lack the excitement I crave, which leads me to sometimes have feelings toward other men, which I hate.
Submitted July 18, 2019 at 03:10AM by beeeelm https://ift.tt/2xTVXwM
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