I (m29) stay stressed out and my (f30)wife thinks the world revolves around her to the point where I have no one to talk to.

TL;DR I have marriage issues that I have no one to talk to about and its starting to drive me crazy. I love myself as a person and dont feel like harming myself but I do think I will end up in a crazy hospital.

This is going to be a long one because there is a lot on my chest I need to get out.

My wife is a stay at home mother and I work full time at a stay at home job making above average money for the city and state we live in but not enough for two kids(80k). I feel like with how my life is situated right now that I have literally every single responsibility that you could put on someone and my wifes sole responsibility is the kids from 9 to 5. My wife was raised with a silver spoon in her mouth and needs everything done for her(examples: oh man this firestick wont come on can you fix it? Come and unplug the power cable and plug it back in.(this is all while still working as well)). I take care of all the money and any time I have ever brought up that we need to stop spending as much, we get into a huge argument leading to her talking about her anxiety and depression cant handle it which I TRY to be as careful as I can because I know that stuff is a serious issue but truly its an easy out of any adult responsibility.

This is a separate rant on top of the last sentence. I figuered up the amount of money we were spending in a months time on LITERALLY just food be it grocery store or out to eat and it was 2300 a month....... I get paid only about 4300 dollars a month. Our bills that are every month add up to 2500 dollars so that alone is over how much I get paid. Which doesnt even add the cost of our medical bills which is another rant I have coming up.

I feel like all the stress I have is effecting my mental health severely. Im not currently suicidal as I am actually happy with my self which is extremely hard to explain but I hate my current situation. Everyone that knows me says I used to be this outgoing person that would give the best hugs and always be smiling but now I seem miserable and I really feel like I am.

One of the current things that is making me actually write this is that my wife is sick and we found that she has something dealing with motion sickness issues but all the time(trying to be least descriptive as I can just in case she were to see this). Its not a serious issue but its also not something I'd say id take for granted that she doesnt feel like shit. The only problem is that my wife is so useless outside of being sick that when shes sick its 10x worse to the point where im taking care of the kids while working and doing all the house work while she lays around and reminds me every 30 mins how bad she feels. This happens almost monthly where she has some sort of sickness that disables her from her normal responsibilities. Not to mention going back to our money issues that she doesnt have to worry about, these doctor visits are so much that ive literally HAD to let 3 or 4 of them just go against our credit as there would be no way for me to pay them 10 dollars here and 10 dollars there because theres 0 dollars in my account.

I feel like I cant breathe sometimes like this isnt even all of the problems that we have. I dread coming down stairs from work to be around her and she likes to bring up in arguments that I dont want to spend time with my family and would rather be playing video games(SHE FUCKING DESPISES VIDEO GAMES). When in reality my kids mean more to me then life it self and I could give anything in the world for them I just hate being around her. Even when playing with my kids she tries to control the way that I play with them. Like she belittles me for not wanting to play barbies with them like I am a bad father. Which that was because I grew so poor that I never had toys so I had to go play outside not sit inside up my moms butt and play with her all day.

I have 1000 more things but literally typing all this out kind of is bumming me out when I should relaxing in this bathtub because my kids are asleep and my work is done for the day.

Submitted July 25, 2019 at 07:47PM by Needsome12talk2plz https://ift.tt/2ZcQNYD