Hi all. I'm 23F and have been at my first full time job as a social media content producer for a little over 6 months now.
Let me preface before I begin: my work is perfect! I'm good at what I do, I love the company, I get paid very well for my age, the office is close to me, plus there's flexible hours. I also have no chronic illness that would affect my energy. I'm in a wonderful relationship of 2 years (22F) and we live together.
What I absolutely don't understand is that even after 6 months of full time work, I get home absolutely exhausted to the point where doing anything other than watch Netflix and scroll through Reddit is impossible.
I have to give 100% of my energy at work to socialise and perform well. I'm bouncing and full of beans through the work day but by the time I'm out the door, my soul has drained from my body. I hate this because I have no time or energy for my various hobbies any more (video games, writing, painting, Warhammer). I'm also annoyed because I like being self sufficient but being in this state means my partner has to pick up my slack and I don't want her to be drained either.
I used to work casual hours and I was okay energy wise, but the unreliability meant I had o social life at all. Having this little energy means I don't even want to socialise anyway. I don't think it's depression as I'm pretty okay mood wise, just mad at myself for being an unenergetic piece of shit. However, lately I've been milling around in this low energy pit crying and wishing I could be how I used to be. I feel hopeless and honestly would hate for this to be the rest of my life.
tl;dr Working full time requires literally 100% of my energy and soul, and I feel like a husk of myself. I want to know if there's ways to manage this energy or if it gets better?
Submitted December 30, 2018 at 04:11PM by nerdb1rd http://bit.ly/2LMJRf3
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