This is a rant of myself more than anything
So there's this guy, I'll call him Matt. I met Matt in college just before the pandemic. We didn't talk much back then but after quarantine started we started talking online here and then. He confessed to have feelings about me back then but I always shut him off. I just broke off a relationship back then and just wasn't interested in dating.
Last year I decided maybe I wanted to start dating again. So I decided to give Matt a chance. We started talking more, went on a couple dates, played videogames together, watched movies on the weekend. Everything was great. I was starting to have feelings for him. Everything I wanted in a man he had. Responsible, ambitious, hard working, and he was honestly such a gentleman, and pretty good looking too. The more I talked to him, the more I liked him. Then one day, poof, as if they were never there, all my romantic feelings for him just went away. I tried to make something about it, listen to romantic songs, read romantic stories but the feelings never came back. He eventually realized and stopped talking to me.
Obviously he deserved to know how I felt and he had every right to stop talking to me. I respect that. I just feel very angry at myself. I haven't felt romantically interested in anyone (besides him while it lasted) since my last partner (around 3 years ago). I don't know if I'm broken or smn. I do want to date and feel that kind of love but no matter how many cool guys I meet, even if they're in my standards, I can't feel romantically attracted to them, why? Is there something wrong with me?
Forgive bad english
TLDR: I met what I think could be the perfect guy for me but I couldn't feel attracted to him. I feel like I'm not capable of feeling romantically interested in someone even though I want to be and I don't know what to do about it.
Submitted February 07, 2023 at 11:02PM by Admirable_Invite8645 https://ift.tt/9lSDmta
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