Boyfriend (30M) has some of my old modeling photos (30F) but I don't know where he got them... I feel strange about the whole situation - should I say something?

Me and boyfriend (of one year now) went to school together from preschool until age 16, and I moved to a different city and we lost touch. Recently, we found each other again in the States through friend of a friend and started dating in a kind of whirlwind fashion. I was really glad to find a hometown friend and we reminisced about our younger years a lot, however, I knew even from the beginning that we didn't have a lot in common - or actually maybe way TOO much in common. He was bullied a lot in school and said he carried a lot of these scars into adulthood. He can be very fearful and anxious. And as for me, I carry some trauma from my childhood and my parents, and basically moved to the US alone to try to get away from this abuse. We discussed these things in length and although commiserated, I kept wondering if this was a good dynamic for us.

But one huge thing that is bothering me right now is that back in age 14-15, I was scouted to be a model (this was back in early 2000s, they had a certain "look" they wanted, not because I was so beautiful). I worked with an agency for a while, took some photos, walked small runways, and eventually got extremely burn out and depressed from my experiences. In particular, some of the photoshoots were not what I expected, too risque for my age, and they would encourage diet pills to stay slim, as well as drinking and stay up all night for events. My parents did not know about anything and I hated the photos from that time, especially the sexier ones. But as my agency was very small and pretty unsuccessful, I just tried to forget about it and move on.

My classmates all knew about my modeling, as at the time I was very proud and kind of arrogant of my "work" and I shared my best photos with them. So my boyfriend of course knew at the time too (he was not my boyfriend then, but just a classmate). However, I only kept my best photos and never shared the other risque ones because I was humiliated by them. I think I destroyed all of those prints actually.

My boyfriend brought this up recently and said that he saved some of my old photos from that time. One of them even had my signature!! (omg) because I thought I would be famous I guess lol omg.. but he also had 2 of my risque/sexy photos... The ones I really hate the most. I was extremely shocked. I swear I have never, ever shared those with anyone - only my agency would have them, and by now, this agency is gone. I pretended like it didn't bother me though, and asked if these were from that time, and he said yes, I passed these out. But I swear there is no way..

I don't know how to bring this up again. How in the world did this happen? Or is my memory just completely destroyed? Did I actually share these horrifying pictures? But I know for certain I DID NOT. They were borderline illegal and I never even should have taken them in the first place, let alone share to a bunch of teenagers.. but then how could he have copies of them?? And share them so innocently to me? Am I losing my mind? Should I ask him again? What is happening?

TLDR: Me and a classmate reconnected after almost 15 years apart and we are now boyfriend/girlfriend. I used to model as a teenager and we talked about old times, those modeling years, and he showed me that he still had some of the photos I passed out during that time. But he also somehow had really horrible photos that I considered secret... I swear that I never ever shared these before. But he showed them to me innocently. I have no idea how he could have these. I feel like I am losing my mind. How did he get these? Is my memory losing it? Should I ask him again? What happened? Am I missing a piece of my own story?

Submitted April 08, 2022 at 05:01PM by anamariayahoo https://ift.tt/39vpXuz