we had a really deep and special connection. We were together for over 6 years and out of the blue he said he wanted a break, we had a really good talk where he said he wants to spend some time alone because he doesn't know how to be alone anymore, but he didn't want to lose me, so a little break. I agreed because I felt the same. And then 4 days later he got into relationship with his girl friend. So yeah. They are still together and here I am. I feel like I am over it but still deep down I miss him so much and it hurts. Because my ego got really hurt, to this day I still have literally no idea why or so.. why it all went like this. I was really really close with his familt as well but then the new girl had a problem that everybody stayed in touch with me and they insisted that they won't ever speak to me again. Again, that really hurt because me and his family members are friends, we talked avout everything besides them. So since I've noticed that we don't speak so frequently anymore.. but I get it.. They have to support their son/brother in the end. But i feel like it doesn't supposed to be like that, it seems wrong. And every time I start to feel better then boom he is in my dreams etc... weird. I just feel like I am no one, so suddenly. It was so easy for him to leave me. I just don't get it. And I have nobody to talk with about that so I just excist and feel how I am numb. And when we were a month into our "pause" I met his sister and we talked and had a nice time but she said that he(my ex) said that he tries to not mind the fact that he hurt me and just go on with his life. So yeah. But I just feel like this is so wrong and weird... why can't I just freaking get over it. I want to but I feel that something is literally pulling me back and I am stuck. It hurts..
tl;dr: I got dumped over a year ago but I still feel drawn to this person and can't get over it because it feels wrong. It hurts
Submitted March 07, 2022 at 03:15AM by kuuneitsi https://ift.tt/TU6PwId
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