My boyfriend and I have been together for about a year. Everything was great for the most part of the relationship. We had our disagreements,of course,but I always felt appreciated. He was eager to please me and always considered my feelings. I never had to worry about expressing myself as I did with my past lovers. Everything came naturally.
I was the same. Got him small gifts,always supported him emotionally,helped with his studying,just to name a few.
I was always surrounded by unhealthy relationships so I made it my goal that he knows just how much he means to me. I communicate as much as I can,even if its really hard for me sometimes.
I never felt this connected to a person before. We are quite young and I have no intention of getting married until Im 30,so I never thought he was "the one", but I just though that even if we broke up,we would still stay great friends.
We are both in medschool. Im always stressed and I study more than is probably healthy. That means we dont see eachother that often,but we make an effort to be together on the weekends,and we have lunch some day during the week.
We had a lot on out plate this exam season,but because of the way I am,I finished all my exams early. He didn't. He was under a lot of stress,so I gave him space. We reviewed together and I did my best to be there for him to calm him down as much as I can. Because of this,we haven't seen eachother in almost a month. This has never happened to us before. I just dont know how to feel. I asked him to hang out a couple of times but he always said no. Said he was stressed and just wanted to study. I understand. I was like that before my exams too so I didn't take it personally. But the issue here is that the exams are done now and he still hasn't asked me to see eachother. Im leaving today for my hometown and wont be back in the city in a month.
He knows this and yet he doesn't care. Ever since he was done with his exams we haven't even been talking. Just some messages throughout the day.
I didn't tell him I was leaving today. My grandma passed away today and I need to just be with my family. I dont even know how hes going to react to the news of my grandmas passing.
Im probably emotional because of the family emergency,but I want my boyfriend to give a damn again.
TL;DR I feel like Im the only person in my relationship because Im the only one making any effort.
Submitted July 12, 2019 at 03:55AM by vlas-t https://ift.tt/2YQY9Rc
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