Throwaway, I really dislike her I don’t know if hate is too strong. Growing up she was not a good parent, I was obese as a kid, she would constantly make fun of me, call me disgusting, say that she was ashamed of me, that she wished that she had a normal daughter. She would always point out normal sized girls in public and tell me that’s what I should look like. Why would you say that to an 8 year old? Still to this day I don’t feel good enough for anyone if I’m being honest, I feel disgusting, because of her. She made me feel so ugly and as if I wasn’t worthy to be her daughter. She would always say that I’m going to die before she does and that no man would ever want to date me. She said she didn’t love me either because of how I was fat. I know I could have had it a lot worse. I have now lost weight which took me quite a long time, I’ve gone down from 100kgs to 75. The thing that really hurts me is that she now says that she loves me and that she is proud of me, that I’m so beautiful now. I’m still the same person as I was 25kgs heavier. So why a change all of a sudden? She also cheated on my dad multiple times, I’d be in my room and men would come over while my dad was at work. Her reasoning is because he wasn’t affectionate enough. I found videos of her on the computer having sex with men when I was about 9 and honestly it was so disgusting to see. Also her nudes were everywhere on the computer and she didn’t even care at all. She also accuses me of doing sexual stuff with my brother which is so disgusting I would never do something like that. She still has the audacity to say she was a good mum and that she worked so hard for me and my brother. She says she did her best. Well her best wasn’t fucking near good enough. When my whole life she would be in bed sleeping mostly everyday while my dad was at work paying the bills. She has not once apologised. So now everything she does makes me so angry, even when she just wants to have a normal conversation with me I just want to punch her in the face, I want her out of my life when I’m older, she means nothing to me and has ruined a chance of a mother daughter relationship. All I wanted was a mother that would care for me and love me for the way I am. It’s sad she couldn’t even do that. Am I being too harsh? Do I even have a right to not like her since she’s my mum? Am I being a bad person if I don’t contact her when I’m older? I dont want to seem like I am
TLDR; I hate my mother because of how she would treat me growing up, am I being unreasonable?
Submitted June 20, 2019 at 08:36PM by help1005432 http://bit.ly/2WY54vd
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