I (32f) ended up finding out my husband (34m) was cheating for quite awhile. I ended the marriage, and now I'm wondering if it was a mistake not giving it another chance? I'm panicking. Help :(

Alright, I am 32 years old and and was married to my husband for 9 years. He's all I know. We met in high school, dated, got married. I absolutely love this man to death. He's always been there. The only man I've loved, kissed, hugged, cuddled, wanted.

I could never imagine being unfaithful to this man, because I love him so so so much. He's always been the most important person to me and I'd do anything for him.

I guess maybe he didn't feel the same? Not sure. I ended up finding out around Thanksgiving that he had been cheating on me. It apparently started August of 2017, and was off and on. He seemed to have a lot of short flings, and a couple that appeared more serious but couldn't of been too much, bc....he was married to me? From August 17', he was on various dating apps always except a couple of months where there wasn't any activity.

Well, I decided on a divorce because at the time, my best friend and my sister had me feeling confident. I felt like he just didn't love me, I could find someone else and finally get my happily ever after.

But... Everyday that goes by, I question everything. I still love him to death, I love what we had, our relationship. Coming home and hanging out together watching dumb TV shows. I miss the cuddling. The kissing. I miss him.

I've started wondering if I made a mistake in just ending it and not giving him another chance? I don't know that I'll ever feel this way about anyone else. I don't know I'll ever love anyone the same. He's all I've ever known and I thought he was my soul mate. Is he the only one for me? Do I have a chance of ever being happy again? Is my life ruined? :(

Tl;dr; husband cheated multiple times. I ended the marriage immediately. Did I make a mistake not giving it another chance? I'm scared ill never find anyone and I ruined my one chance with my soul mate. Help :(

Submitted March 02, 2019 at 04:04PM by FeelingLost_19 https://ift.tt/2TpzAeR