Throwaway account, hence the generic name.
This all started when I started secondary school. I am a naturally socially awkward person, and needed a wee bit of time to get out of my shell, if you know what I mean. During my first days of school, I tried my best to make some new friends, and I was successful. However, this goes down the drain, sort of, when people find out about my brother [15]. He is notorious for causing hassle to the general public, vandalising gardens, smoking, drinking alcohol, shoplifting etc. He has autism, but nonetheless, there is no excuse for his actions. He did show up to my school a few times to cause trouble, and that helped give me a bad reputation. I became a lot more isolated, bullied verbally, with comments about my appearance, being called a rat, big ears and such. I told senior management about the bullying, but all that happened was a "stern-talking to". I was very upset that nobody was doing anything to help me. I talked less to people, which led my school to believe that I had some disorder that made it difficult for me to communicate with people. They contacted my mother if they should conduct some tests for autism on me, and myself and her both declined. This seems a bit contradictory, but wait...
Currently, I have 2 siblings that are on the autism spectrum, and my mother always talks about the topic whenever her friends come over. You'll be sure to hear something about "traits" and "weird obsessions" they have. It doesn't stop there. I have other siblings who have not yet been diagnosed with autism/aspergers, but she is also talking about how they have things like OCD and symptoms of psychosis. I've been told by my mum that she reckons I have autism because "I'm always interested in photography". She read one website that said "people who have autism/aspergers tend to engage in topics like Photography". I have no difficulty in conversing with people; it's only when my mum is around, I feel intimidated because I'm afraid of her judgement of certain actions I make. This causes me to not really talk with her friends and seem disinterested. Then, when I go away, I hear my mum go "he's always like this, not talking to people. It's part of his autism". I feel like I have nowhere to go. The school won't help because they'll take my mum's opinion on how I've been acting. I've spoke to my mum many times on how I feel about it. She brushes it off with "Oh, I've not been talking about you, it's your brother/sister". She's even commented about how all of us (except from her, of course) are on the spectrum.
I don't know if I'm right, but I've got a feeling she's wanting all her kids to have some sort of autism/aspergers diagnosis to make it out that she's a saint, 5 children, all with autism, how she battles through her daily struggles...
I would love it if I could get some feedback on this. And thank you for taking the time to read this.
TL;DR: My mum is convinced I have autism, talked to her many times about how I don't, but is sure I have it.
Submitted June 02, 2021 at 10:09AM by Dazzling-Donkey9392 https://ift.tt/3ceAGlE
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