We go to universities near eachother but live very far away. We've been dating for a while (8 months) but since being at home (for the holidays- so temporarily) he dropped majority of contact. At uni we would call for 10-15 mins at least every other day as we could only see eachother at some weekends, and this was totally fine. But since coming home I obviously haven't seen him once and over the last few weeks he only had time to call me twice and messaging had been very intermittent and disinterested. I tried everything j could to fix it and we had small arguments 3/4 times all ending with him telling me he was trying his best, but k don't think that is his best, and if it is, it's not good enough. I brought it up again and he said there was nothing he could do, he didn't tell me of there was something taking up all his time since coming home and I said fine if you don't have time for me I'll treat you the same, so I stopped chasing and we didn't talk for a week or so. New year went with no conversation and I reached out again saying 2020 wouldn't be the year id love him or anyone else over myself and he had to choose whether I was worth the time of day. He said no. I reached out to his closest friend who I really respect and he spoke to him to check he was ok and he (friend) doesn't understand why he just switched off instead of stepping up. I was in an abusive relationship for years and it's dredging up so many awful feelings of worthlessness and isolation and loving someone who's hurting you and stopped feeling the same way. I'm hurting so badly and I want him back and to just treat me like he wants me but he doesn't. I don't have any friends he was my only support because I have severe anxiety and I'm really struggling to talk to people, so now I feel like the only person in the world.
Sorry for the rant I have no one I can talk to
TL;Dr my healthy relationship crumbled following temporary distance because my bf gave up and no longer wanted me which ripped my heart out
Submitted January 04, 2020 at 10:03AM by pocketcamper314 https://ift.tt/2rZ6Xtk
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