I (26f) found videos my husband (28m) took of my sister at a fourth of July family event. He broke down, begged for forgiveness after I brought it up... and I just feel confused.

This is weird to say the least. I'm not sure what to think at this point.

Me and my husband have been together since high school, and we got married when I was 22 and he was 24. He is absolutely my DREAM man and I wouldn't of traded him for anything. I love him to death. I've never questioned his love or loyalty for me period, so this is just... A weird situation I've run into.

This last fourth of July, my entire family got together and celebrated at a local spot in our city. There were tons of activities and things to do, and it was amazing.

At one point, me and my husband and two of my younger sisters were in line to do a prize wheel. Right next to us, was a second line for a prize wheel as well. So there were two. In that line, was my sister, my dad and two younger brothers. I vividly remember this when it happened.

Me and my husband were hugging, joking, laughing and having fun while we were waiting. He was hugging me and kissing on me, and it was just nice. I was absolutely in heaven.

Well, that memory has been completely tainted as of today though, and now I'm extremely sad and in a weird place mentally.

I was going to go through Google Photos and look for a specific time in July, but couldn't remember when. I just searched July, and looked through everything.

I saw a video and the preview of it was obviously my sister. I instantly recognized it, and remembered it was from the fourth because of her outfit. I thought it must have been an accident that I took somehow?

Then... I realized next to that one... Were about 5 others. I played them and realized it wasn't me that took it... They had to of been my husband's videos. The sound was of me and my husband talking, kissing etc and the videos were solely focused on my sister standing in line.

I felt weird about it and asked him as soon as he got home, and he broke down and apologized. I was broken, because part of me thought it HAD to of been an accident. He didn't know it was recording. Totally unintentional. But nope. It was on purpose.

He cried and begged me to forgive him, he apologized a million times and swore he'd never do it again and "he didn't know why he even did".

I'm confused and just lost right now. I don't feel the same about him suddenly and I'm scared. I've loved this guy for years and years. He's the only guy I've known as an adult. He's my soul mate.

Now I'm sitting here... Hes next to be sleeping, and I almost feel disgusted. He took a video of my sister waiting in line. A moment that should've been innocent, he ruined it.

He was kissing on me, hugging me, whispering in my ear how he loves me.... And recording my sister. I feel like I'll never see him the same again.

I don't know what to do. I've been with this guy for years and years, we're trying to start a family of our own. We're in love.

On one hand I feel like it's too much to just throw what we have away.... But on the other hand, I feel weird toward him now. Like he's a stranger or something. I don't know :( please help.

Tl;dr; found videos my husband took of my sister at a family event. She was just waiting in line like we were. I feel weird and don't see him the same... But we've been together since high-school and I don't know that I should throw it away over this. I'm so confused. So conflicted. Someone please help me :(

Submitted August 24, 2019 at 10:25PM by OuchThatHurt00 https://ift.tt/2ZmBSPT