So, this should be fun. Well, my mom [49F] and I [18F] have always had a super close relationship. It’s just her and I in the house and I have always had no reason to hide stuff from her. I’m her only daughter, and she hasn’t remarried since my parents divorced when I was a baby, so we’re naturally very close.
Well, as I’m finishing up my senior year of high school, I was always curious about sex and just wanted to experience the fun that everyone else raves about. I went all throughout high school only going as far as making out with a few guys. I genuinely wanted to just have fun and experience these things with someone I trusted before I started university in the fall.
So, I began talking to my long time guy friend from school [18M] about wanting to hang with him at his house one day. He’s expressed interest in me before, but, I’m not really interested in the idea of starting a relationship right before my first year of college. He totally understood, and was down to just have some fun together and keep it super casual. Great, I think.
So I tell my Mom I’m going to hang out with this guy, and that’s he’s my good friend. She hasn’t met him, but he’s genuinely a really nice person to hangout with. She doesn’t think much of it. I know something may happen, but I honestly don’t know for 100%, so I keep my thoughts to myself since I don’t know what’s going to happen anyways.
Alright! So, while I’m at his house, and we’re getting very flirty, just having fun. We’re fooling around, going down on eachother, making out, it’s so much fun! He was not pressuring me whatsoever (he had a lot more experience than me anyways). He was totally fine to not go any further, however, I asked him if he was willing to try and have sex. He made sure I was certain it was okay, and he agreed. I’m already on birth control and he used condoms, I wanted to make sure it was responsible. We only ended up having PIV sex for a few minutes, as I was experiencing pains. He totally understood, stopped, and we went back to fooling around like before. Perfect day, and I totally appreciated his patience.
Well, fast forward to when I come home. My mom was home from work and I sit down around her, make small talk, the usual. Well, I’ve always been open to her about these things, and I wanted to establish open communication and made sure she knew I was honest. I tell her that my friend and I fooled around a bit, and we tried to have sex.
She’s taken off guard. Completely and utterly confused. “But you don’t even like the guy?” “You’re not dating him, how can you sleep with someone you’re not even crushing on?” “Its your FIRST TIME! I would’ve thought you would want it with a boyfriend!”
This is what made me confused. I understand it’s an instinct for my mom to get protective, but at the same time, I told her I felt ready and I wanted to have sex with someone I trusted and felt comfortable with. I don’t regret a single second of my time with my friend. It was more than I could’ve asked for. I don’t think a label really changes anything, it’s more of how I felt with the guy at the time.
Now, my mom thinks that “if I can sleep with this guy, you’re just going to become a slut in university.” No, Mom. Is it wrong for me to just wanted to have experienced sex after waiting all throughout high school? It’s not like I just gave it away to a random on the street, I trusted my friend and he supported me all throughout. I just think she’s being extremely hypocritical. She lost her virginity younger than I did, and even though I’m an adult, it’s unacceptable and she can’t understand why I would do it? Now I’m the slut for losing it to my friend?
I just don’t think it’s her decision to understand. I made a decision, I was responsible and used protection, and I’m the one who is going to live with the outcome. I don’t regret my decisions, if anything I’m proud to have had my first time be with someone who was so understanding. I’m just beyond frustrated and confused. I need an outsiders point of view. Thank you all for listening to my rant.
TLDR: I lost my virginity to my more experienced friend. Mom thinks I’m a slut and will continue to be so going into University.
Submitted June 22, 2019 at 06:44PM by aeothot http://bit.ly/2Lb4umw
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