For The First Time Ever I Thought Someone Wanted To Be With Me, But It Was All A Joke From People I thought Would Never Do Something Like That To Me.

So I have 2 cousins and they both live in Canada. One of them is dating a girl from my church and I'm honestly happy for the both of them, until one of my cousins decided to use her to joke around with me.

Yesterday after church I went to get my coat from the coat room. She was there so I said hello, she then continued to tell me that someone wanted her to deliver a message to me saying they that I was cute and they wanted her record my reaction. I was born with a cleft lip and palate and honestly deep down I don't think I'm cute, even though I like to think I am sometimes. My cleft lip is different from the other a bit. My nose is crooked and my teeth are also messed up but I have braces to fix them.

When she told me that I knew this felt awkward, My gut feeling told me it was my cousins behind this. I asked her did my cousins tell her to say that, she said no and asked why would my cousins call me cute and stuff like that.

She then asked me if I thought I was cute and I kind of felt stuck because I know I'm not and I didn't want to appear like I was confident so I said I was decent and blah blah blah. Then she asked me if I thought She was cute and I said no because other people were there and she was dating my cousin. then she asked if I remember when I used to like her and stuff I just walked away and said no.

I was really happy the fact that "somebody" thinks I'm cute. I spent the whole night thinking about who it was and what type of boyfriend I would be and stuff like that. So I texted my cousins girl and ask her who it was and she told me the girl was shy and shes pretty and that I might Like her. I told her to just tell me who it is and she said the girl looks almost like her. then asked me if I thought she was cute. I told her I wouldn't answer that because she was dating my cousin and stuff like that. Then she asked me what was my cousin going to do and stuff like that so then I told her she looked okay. she then asked me to do it on a scale from 1-10, I told her 7 or 8 so that she would tell me who the girl is since they "Looked alike" but then she told me she was just kidding and it was a dare from my cousins.

I'm so pissed off the fact that they did this to me, I don't even want to talk to either of those people mentioned above.

I had my hopes up because this is something that I really wanted for myself but It was all a lie. I did expect this from my cousins but not from his girlfriend who I thought had good intentions and wouldn't do something like that to me but she did and now I feel even worse about myself then I did before. I want to cut them all off.

what should I do?

Tldr: Cousins used their girl to tricking me into thinking someone wanted me but it was all a joke.

Submitted December 27, 2018 at 01:05PM by jahthegod http://bit.ly/2GRuzXA