I feel ridiculous just typing this out but yeah. My mom recently had my brother with her new husband and I seriously don't know how I'm supposed to feel about it. I've always been an only child, so I literally have no idea how to be an "older sister" or whatever at this point.
The baby is just....annoying. I know it's bad of me to say that but he is! He cries, he screams, apparently he is "colicy" or whatever, which basically means he cries for absolutely no reason.
I'm just having a lot of trouble being fine with him living in this house. I had to give up my room because it was closer to my mom's room, and I got moved to the smaller bedroom downstairs. They said it doesn't really matter because I only have one more year of highschool anyways before I'm gone, but it still really fruterated me.
I'm pretty sure that baby is nocturnal. It's awful, his room is directly above mine and it's bad. Also, I sometimes accidentally call him "that baby" and it pisses my mom off ("he's your brother stop acting like he's a stranger!!"). I get that shes running on low sleep but I literally didn't ask for that baby to be born so maybe she could just chill out ?
Basically I'm really starting to resent the hell out of him and I honestly don't even care if I never form an attachment. My mom, however, can tell I don't really care about the baby and she hates it. He's gonna be graduating highschool and I'm gonna be in my 30s and probably having kids of my own. I'm going to be gone in a year and he probably won't even remember me.
Has anyone else dealt with such a big age gap, and had similar feelings? What should I do about it? Do I even really have to do anything about it?
Forgot a tldr in my original so
tldr: My mom and stepdad had a baby, I don't really care for him, my mom isn't happy about that. How do I change how I feel, and do I even have to?
Submitted June 01, 2019 at 01:56PM by babyaby1 http://bit.ly/2XhatcO
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