Me and my husband moved into a really nice new high rise apartment last year and it felt like all my dreams were coming true. But soon things turned for the worse.
It all started when my cat tragically died in the living room, and I felt a dark cloud over the place. Then me and my husband had some relationships issues and kept fighting. Then, I got pregnant by a freak accident with an IUD in and had a late 10 week miscarriage in my shower that was the most traumatic experience of my life. As we healed all our good times seemed to be when we travelled.
I tried for another baby and had another miscarriage while my inlaws visited, again it happened in my bathroom. Also my mom whom is a narcissit and I recently cut off with basically claimed the guest room as hers and her energy is all over this place as she forced herself to visit many times while we lived here.
Its gotten to the point where this is a nice place but it makes me physically sick, I absolutely despise and hate it. I feel physically ill in claustrophobic in here. I am wondering if I am over reacting or if this is normal, as obviously life can be traumatic and theres not always the option to move.
I want a new place where my mom doesnt get to visit, a new fresh spot without all these memories. Is this normal or is there something mentally wrong with me? I am afraid to hurt my husband as he is so proud of this apartment and I dont want to sound ungrateful
tldr;; after a traumatic year i despise my apartment and want to move but I feel like im being ungrateful
Submitted March 01, 2019 at 07:43PM by wantomove123 https://ift.tt/2VyrRIU
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