We’ve been together for 8 months now and it’s all going super well.
The thing is, I’ve had to deal with pretty competitive and negative girls since I was a child, and I’ve had trouble being comfortable around other women. I’m slowly working on that with my therapist.
He made me realise how in all of my previous relationships, I always made sure I was the “only” woman. So I’ve always ended up dating guys who never had a serious relationship before me. I liked to be the first and only one.
Now my SO dated a girl for 7 years before me! She broke up with him a bit more than a year ago, and I know he was devastated, and I’m positive he would have married her if it had been up to him. He says he’s over it, and breaking up was the right decision, but he’s always so tender when talking about her.
Yesterday we bumped into her at a friend’s house and my heart kind of sank. She was beautiful, and extremely nice to me, even told me she was happy we were together, asked me about myself. Somehow it bothered me even more, she was this amazing positive woman, I could not find her any faults.
The worst part was him, he was looking at her with stars in his eyes, the same way he looks at me sometimes when we’ve bonded and he’s happy. I could feel he was drawn by her, she still had so much power over him. He could barely get himself to leave when it was time.
I was quiet all the way home and I felt terrible. He noticed it and tried to reassure me, but nothing would really. He was extra affectionate and nice and kept trying to make me feel better.
I’m just lost and anxious and I keep seeing his smile when she talked, and I don’t know if I’m overreacting or not.
TLDR: my SO and I bumped into his ex, and she was super nice and he looked at her with so much tenderness that I don’t know what to think.
Submitted December 27, 2018 at 11:56PM by babaorom http://bit.ly/2EPqrVf
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