Yeah, the title pretty much says it all.
The last time people saw me in March 2020 I was 5”4 and 143lbs and now I’m almost 200lbs. I wouldn’t call it a quarantine gain because I was already on my way to gaining weight due to my binge eating and depressive episodes and birth control but quarantine definitely took away the little exercise I used to have during the day from walking.
I’ve been trying to hide from people and deleted my social media and avoided reaching out to friends, thinking that I’ll recover my friendships once I “glowed up.” The past few months, I had a couple friends reach out and I definitely felt upset turning them down with various reasons as to why I can’t video call or have a socially distanced meet ups.
Currently I feel extremely lonely and with the vaccination and the weather, I really want to see some of my friends before I lose them. I was actually surprised that 2 of my friends reached out to meet after I’ve ignored them for a year.
Anyway, I just feel like they will be so surprised and judge me for letting myself go and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to be “myself” because I’m so self conscious now. Also one time when I gained weight and saw one of my old fiends, she audibly gasped WOW.
I guess my question is when you guys meet someone you haven’t seen in a year and they look much bigger, what do you think? Would it change your perspective of them? Would you lose respect for them etc?
tl;dr: anxious to see friends after gaining lots of weight, how do you deal with it?
Submitted June 01, 2021 at 02:32PM by OrganicAfternoon https://ift.tt/3fHGhDn
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