I don't know how to put this in the title because its really dicey. So me and my ex are still friends. She calls us best friends but i dont think so. I frankly think she crosses the line ALOT. She calls me every night before she goes to sleep on top of a few times throughout the day. Well just lay there in our beds talking for about an hr and a half everynight and it feels very nice and i used to always look forward to hearing her whisper i love you sleeply into the phone. It made me feel special. Now though it makes me feel sick and want to cry.
Issue comes when we talk about stuff around that time. She has a boyfriend and they just got together and she seems very happy. Unfortunately i know exactly what happened a few minutes before she called even if she doesnt tell me because i know her voice changes when she does certain things. It stings honestly. Ill be sleeping and itll be 1am and shell call me and if i dont answer on the first ring she gets upset and if i dont answer period she keeps calling. On my end i do feel somewhat obligated. I have always been the guy she calls because it was our special thing and she feels safer walking from her car to her apartment with me on the line.
It honestly went from a capstone of our days to something that ruins my night. I told her flat out and she cant seem to wrap her head around it. She honestly is very oblivious to alot of her behavior it seems. Last night i even told her "dont call me, call your boyfriend" because she had told me they were going to hang out and i wanted to have one good night. I honestly spent 3 or 4 hours last night trying to make myself happy because this shit has made me depressed. She then called and she was all giggly with that fucking ring in her voice. When i said i was uncomfortable she got upset as shit and said ill get over it eventually. I want to believe her but honestly i dont.
I love her very much and i don't want to leave and i don't want to dread the night call. I don't like that im in so much pain that i now deal with her in what she calls "the robot voice". I don't even like talking to her about my day anymore because it breaks down the walls i built to keep me safe.
What do i do here honestly?
Tldr: ex calls everynight. It used to be nice but ever since she got a boyfriend ive dreaded the calls because her voice changes when theyve had a real good night so i know what happened instantly. I asked her to stop but she won't. It still hurts honestly because we are very close. Im unsure of what to do.
Submitted November 07, 2021 at 05:39AM by Tecumseh94 https://ift.tt/3BTK7B5
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