Last week I broke up with my girlfriend after dating for 2 years. It took me a really long time to end things and I think because I’m young and only 20 I didn’t even realize how toxic and not normal she was. She was my first serious girlfriend and I fell in love with her so fast. But looking back she was so fucking toxic. She was a super emotional person and would breakdown so easily. Couldn’t even talk with her about issues because she would just play the victim card the whole time. She was super manipulative.
One time she lied to me about hanging with her ex and I caught her in a lie. I tried to end the relationship but she threatened to start cutting herself again if I left. She would constantly talk to other guys on her phone but god forbid I even talk to one other girl on Snapchat and she would absolutely lose her shit and get all defensive. There were so many double standards with her. She would fake pregnancy scares every once in awhile too, and I swear to god would have tried to baby trap me if her mother didn’t force her to be on birth control. My final straw was when she confessed to making out with a guy at a party a couple weeks ago. Idk why it took me so long to end things and realize how fucked up the relationship was.
I was sad the first few days but honestly I just feel very relieved now. I feel like I’m finally getting back to my old self. Taking the summer to just hangout with friends, enjoy myself, go on trips, and just have a good time being single. I’m honestly glad that I had her as my first girlfriend. I’m now able to recognize just about every red flag there is in a relationship. I’ll probably end up dating again when the time is right but for now I’m just content living one day at a time and being stress free.
As for her I think she still has feelings for me but I honestly don’t have an ounce of remorse or emotional feelings towards her. She told me that she still wants to be friends, and although I didn’t exactly agree to it I told her I would keep her contact info in my phone if she ever needed anything important. Since then she’s texted me nearly every single day, and today is the first day where she’s just left me alone. I have a feeling she thinks we’ll get back together eventually. I have no intentions of it at all and if things get worse then I’m definitely going to block her.
TL;DR: Broke up with my toxic ex after 2 years.
Submitted June 04, 2021 at 09:40PM by mort8 https://ift.tt/2S3TTQx
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