Me (30m) was watching a film with my gf (28m)...”brave” for those interested...and for the context I’d already told her I had insecurities about my junk. I’m above average but I’m a stupid insecure man and had one horrendous experience with a size queen...but I’m here for the relationship side not junk side.
She just randomly blurted out I’m in her top 3 penises. I was really surprised as the film does nothing to conjure up memories of dicks. I was kinda shocked as I’d not asked because I didn’t want to know. She then said her recent ex Chris was number 2...I was really insecure and felt terrible so I didn’t react (emotional reactions are the worst) and then after a pause she said “it’s really weird do you want to know who’s hung like a horse?”. Now everyone’s gonna want to know that...turned out in the past she slept with an indirect co-worker (she didn’t know that, just co-incidence).
She went into detail about how it needed two hands and she couldn’t finish her meal afterwards. I’m sat there feeling pure shock and inadequacy. I don’t go into detail about my past through respect.
Between now and then when we have sex she comes, often multiple but I only come 5% of the time because I’m just thinking about how she said it and about the other dudes. quite often I give up because I take so long and she starts cramping or I just have had enough. she falls asleep, then I go into the bathroom and sort myself out.
A little while later, today, I finally bring it up and tell her how it made me feel, that I think about it during sex and it why I take so long. I’m open with the fact if this keeps going we’ll have to end it on grounds of sexual compatibility. she openly admitted to saying it to test me to see how committed I was to her (she was insecure if I liked her). I tell her it pushed me away and made me less committed. She says she knows it stupid, doesn’t know why she did it and shows genuine remorse. I say to leave it there, no point flogging a dead horse.
Later she asks where she ranks on my “vagina list” to make it even...I refuse to tell her because I don’t want to hurt her. And say I’ll tell her when it’s not “just to get even”.. tbh she’s not up there in the “tightest” I’ve been with and I’m not sure if I’ll be honest, I don’t want her feeling like I do.
Things don’t feel the same. I’m stuck in bed not being able to sleep. Researching male enhancement at 2/3am in the morning.
I just needed to get this off my chest.
TL:DR gf tested me by telling me her dick ranking, to see how I’d react. Ends up hurting my ego. I’m now sad and now I can’t come . I’m thinking how long can this last
Submitted May 24, 2020 at 07:22PM by gtw1989 https://ift.tt/2WWRV3P
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