I have muscular dystrophy and I have really weak muscles. I use an electric wheelchair and use a machine to help me breathe. I feel so ugly and broken, that no one would ever want to be with someone like me. People tell me that I shouldn't want to be with such people or that they're just shallow, but I don't think that's true. Some disabled people do have relationships, but I'm certain they're in the minority. We're programmed to look for traits in potential partners that show they are healthy. I can even see it when I'm around other people; they act like I'm really fragile. And maybe I am in a way.
I don't blame other people for thinking like this, but I'm so unbearably lonely. I don't know how to be better, to show that I have value. I don't even know if I would have value as someone's partner. I fell in love once (I didn't tell her) and I couldn't see how I could make her happy. I don't feel like I can do that with anyone. I don't know what I can do.
tl;dr: I'm disabled and scared that I'll never have a partner
Submitted August 03, 2020 at 04:22PM by PlaceConsistent https://ift.tt/3i5Oqjq
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