We are in a new city & state visiting and have to leave tonight. I wanted to visit a really nice mall and on our way here, he says “that girl isn’t wearing a bra.” I got angry and asked what business was he has looking at a girls tits. He said “I wasn’t checking her out I was just saying.”
So I remained angry and said I’m not going to the mall anymore to which he replied “fuck you.” Then said “why shouldn't I look? You don’t take care of yourself, she does apparently.” That did it for me.
I know I’m acting childish but I got really upset that he was looking at another girl that way and then ends it with a remark about my weight I started balling my eyes out and 1 hour later I’m still crying sitting in the car as he and baby stroll the mall I wanted to go to.
I had a baby 1 year ago, I’m 5’3 and 150lbs — just to paint a picture of how fat I am.
This is not an uncommon type of argument. He often comments on my weight saying he needs an attractive wife. I feel that in the very beginning of my relationship when I was in much better shape he was less ugly to me.
Other than lose weight which I’m trying, what to do? I know I’m shooting myself in the foot by robbing myself of this fun experience I could be having but instead self loathing in a car. I hate acting childish and sensitive. I hate that Im not losing weight fast enough. It’s hard. Everything’s hard.
Edit: I do not think I’m abusive. I don’t cuss at him, withhold love, neglect him, or make negative comment on his looks. I think since he has started making really ugly remarks (what I described here was nothing) I have become more triggered and insecure than usual. He has called me much worse and has left me in tears multiple occasions after telling me stuff like I can’t lose weight fast enough, that so many others have flat stomachs so why can’t his wife, etc.
Tl;dr Husband wants me to lose weight but he’s rude AF about it I get insensitive and childish and ruin my own damn day even when out on vacation.
Submitted August 05, 2019 at 12:58PM by Anerrmalz https://ift.tt/31lWjJe
No comments:
Post a Comment